It’s been quiet…a little too quiet…

There has been peace in our dysfunctional alignment…both too afraid to stir up drama…neither having the emotional value to endure yet another pointless war.

This makes me wonder…if my narc is as torn between his worlds as I am? I ponder this question more often than not, because the empath in me sees the clawing child in him. He doesn’t want to fight right now, I can see it, and I know that it’s because he is one crack away from a melt down!

The conundrum however, why wouldn’t he want the drama? Why wouldn’t he want an opportunity to lash out and play the game he was born to play??

Maybe, just maybe, this hurts him as much as it hurts me!

Yes! I know! This is literally text book “take him back” mentality…but the truth is, he has human in him, and maybe I cant draw it out of him, but perhaps finding it is a step in the right direction?

I want to run for cover, but I dont want to be a coward! If I leave, I’m as good as everyone else who abandoned him and I go from being a receiver to a result of the problem!

The part of him that is protected by the narc around him, is worth the pain and worth the sacrifice…

Im not sure if I am the enabler or the enabled…